A moment away

things found in web
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

I found this on my short trip for soothing, cooling photography. Apparently the spider either was dead or didn't care that this beetle was snacking on a stored prey item in the web. It makes sense that there would be prey theft in the insect world, I just had never thought about it.

Sleestak?

Gorn karaoke
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

No, Goran, but he's with us tonight to sing a very special very of "Diamonds Are Forever". I couldn't help but want to capture the moment from this intentionally serious Star Trek episode, "Arena" with one of the silliest looking aliens.

Kirk narrowly escaped. His big error was trying to kick the very slow opponent. The "zzzz" ing and, "Stop running. I will be merciful .... quick". He also laughs with a "zzzz" sound.

By the way, Sleeslack was from Land of the Lost 70's Saturday morning show.

business card

business card
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

Friends sent Mom a homemade wreath. I just thought that I'd plug their business for what it's worth.

Wreaths by LeMi

Great advice

Lord, Keep your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth.

Gone missing

Looking for jobs on Monster and Regionalhelpwanted I found absolutely nothing on the 17th. How is that flippin' possible? Not a single job posted for 50-100 miles of my zip. I can't believe that the records department got that right. Anyway, disappointment!

Menard's simple

Hat's off to Menards Hardware for making a return the fastest, easiest ever. I can't remember or think of a faster exchange. They took the item, scanned, credited credit card all within 2 minutes, without a question as to why it was returned. That, my friends, is a great simple policy. The part returned didn't fit and made it impossible to use other, more important items. So, thanks Menards!

more about "jobs"

General OPEN INTERVIEWS

 

Retail Customer Service associates and managers: A local retail company will be conducting open interviews for our store in Bluffton, Huntington and Fort Wayne. The interviews will be conducted on Wednesday, Sept. 20 from 10:00 to 5:30 p.m. at the Hilton Garden Inn, [specific location removed].  A fun family atmosphere awaits qualified candidates. Previous customer service experience a plus and management experience is not necessary.  We offer a competitive salary, full benefits, 401K and bonus plans. Come join us and see what we're all about. We look forward to meeting any interested candidates.

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It's a company so trustworthy, we'll not name it.

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Security

STS SECURITY
Now Hiring Armed Officers for all shifts. Must have valid Gun Permit. Apply at:

 

-- "All I know, is that I finally get to shoot somebody.", Stripes

When you're old, you're old

If you can recognize all or any of the computers or pictures shown, you are old. Sadly, I'm old.

UAW

For lack of a different union offer, as part of my job acceptance to one job -- I joined UAW. I didn't mind that the union stablized wages, but I thought it odd -- considering what I did. In my several union jobs, I found that too often, unions protected the ill-suited for real work. I would suggest that 20-60 % of those "protected" by unions were indeed incapable of holding a different job. Moreover, fighting companies to get them to pay wages and benefits for a "deisel fitter"+ that exceeded medical practioner's salaries was unreal. I'm glad that it finally (decades later) comes back to bite them in the ass. The question the media hasn't asked, are the dues staying the same or increasing? That is the right question.

Ford purging jobs after GM purges jobs; odd. No, not really odd -- just late in coming.

+ joke about a man getting a higher pay for a skilled job, not recognizing a line inspector for panties, "deze will fit her"

pat response

Politicians everywhere are stating, "I had my doubts when I stood in ovation clapping the military strike into Iraq". I clearly was mislead with misleading information, some of which I can't expose due to national security. I can condem the war in Iraq and put Bush on a spike. My comrads and I are rally against anything that popularity polls indicate is negative and jumping on board with the positive.

Yeah, war was bad idea. Yeah! Bring our boys home (when we're successful and look good), yeah! Social Security reform -- yeah! We don't have to have solutions, we only have to underscore the negative. It's Comedy Central's roast of George W. Bush; where most of both parties (this time unlovingly) roast him for things unpopular and overplayed by the media.

The rats leap from the cat (Bush) and deny any involvement. And thus ... the cat, having lost the race forever chases the rat. (Chinese astrology based on the great animal race to cross the river. The rat rode on the cat's back and leapt off at the last minute finishing 12th -- there were only 12 places allowed).

I don't like politics. I rather view myself as Rah from Plattoon, pointing out to Taylor that he came in admiring Barnes for the longest time, only now to try to crucify him. In the movie, Barnes died, Elias died, Taylor was injured terribly including burns, and Rah remained ever angry, ever ready.

Guy who can't shoot basketball, shoots anyway

Pittsburgh, PA: 5' 8" man shoots college kids/men who play basketball. I think, ultimately, it was jealousy as the short man couldn't slam dunk. His victims got slammed but didn't duck. In the end, no racially motivated crime here. There was an argument, ending in shooting. The shooter ran off into the foggy morning, hidden for no one to find.

F&*^&#$@$!$&*^*&$^#((*&^^&^*^*@^#@*^*@!

JOB!
MONEY!
RELATIONSHIPS!

I smited the lovely lamb with my hate. The lamb was my soul.

Ich bin sour

I cannot find a smile. I am angry and can't vent. What I want to die is my anger. I hate it! Damn do I hate being pissed -- no vent, just eat the anger and let it digest, hoping it will pass. There are too many things to name. It isn't the little things -- the main issues are aching me.

I burn.

Castle walls are hip again

If you thought the dark ages were over and long ago, then think again! Bagdad is getting its own wall. The US wants to build one at the Mexican border. I'm sure other nations will follow, keeping up with the Joneses. The theme here is not East Berlinish, keeping the populace in, but rather keeping the untouchables out. I think, if given a choice, the US should wall up all of LA, California. Yep, that would be okay!

I also think that they could have some plasma screens or something advertising for products available online at stores, so the unwanted to still spend money in your country/city/region, but not infect it with their presence. Come, buy here, just don't stay. Thank you, Management.

term: pulled a boner

Perhaps it means something embarassing. Imagine a guy at school, when for a good reason or no good reason at all -- broing! You dare not stand and if the bell rings, well, you've suddenly discovered a page needing erasing (for time to elapse). The mistake was being a guy -- with everpresent ideas of sex and women.

In my mind, I'm thinking of Yoda commenting, "Obi Wan has lost a planet. How embarassing. How embarassing."

photo smart

I brought in a CD with pictures to make a quick print for family. The picture isn't what's important, but the prompts at the self-service were. After using the CD, it asks at the end if I would like to make a picture CD. Uh, would it have been too costly to put in a couple lines of code to eliminate that?

by accident

I was at Walgreens today, making a purchase at the counter, when I mentioned to the saleswoman there that there was an oddity on a picture they had showing. She leaned over to examine the picture, I turned away from the picture to see that she was looking at it and ... cleavage. It wasn't intentional. I feel so ashamed because it was unintentional. If I had wanted to see, I would have put forth more effort. I happen to know who she is because of where I get my hair cut. She is the bi-polar daughter of a woman who works at the "salon/gallery". The saleswoman also has a child. I believe that she's still living with some guy, though unmarried.

Popeye's down day

So, they traced down the ill farm with e-Coli and laid down napalm, and it was good. And then they laid down more napalm and found that it was good, and rested. A second group wanted to know why there was e-Coli, but there wasn't much left of anything to examine, so they rested.

Spinach farmers gathered today to file for government tax abatement from a really bad year. The good news is that there weren't any advertisements that needed pulled for there are about 30-70 ratio of people who like to those who don't like spinach. You can't con people into liking it.

Popeye's chicken was unaffected except for the quasi-intellectuals who pieced together only parts and fragments assuming that Popeye's sold spinach. To-be fried chickens could only dream of an avian salvation. Disease would only bring about death in another manner. In retrospect, the chickens fried at Popeyes were overly soaked in oil and fat and killed more people than is calculated.

What's interesting is the biological processes of transmission and carrying of bacteria in crops such as spinach. I know that some plants and crops absorb heavy metals, but keeping e-Coli in stasis is, well ... new to me. I thought that it wouldn't be viable after a short time.

impressed with ziploc

impressed with ziploc
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

What happens when you overfill a plastic container, then freeze it? Well, this is one possibility. I found this in the freezer and cooked it for the folks. It was frozen chili. I liked the smoke and steam while it cooked, adding to the mystique of the shot.

Here's a little Ditty, 'bout John Chapman

While many people become legends after their deaths, John Chapman, born in Massachusetts on September 26, 1774, was a legend in his own time. Known throughout Indiana, Ohio and Illinois as Johnny Appleseed, John Chapman began his travels at the age of 18. Here are some interesting facts about this unique individual.

John did not randomly scatter apple seeds in the wilderness, rather he planted nurseries of apple trees with fences around them for protection from livestock.

He had a business plan. When Johnny traveled on, a willing neighbor would care for the nursery and sell trees on shares. Johnny would return in a year or two to check the nursery and collect his earnings.

Johnny died near Fort Wayne, Indiana, after traveling the wilderness for nearly fifty years.

Before his death he tried to give his wealth to the needy. However, Elizabeth, his sister, inherited over 1200 acres of nurseries worth millions even then.

Each year in mid-September the Johnny Appleseed Festival is held at the Johnny Appleseed Park in Fort Wayne near his grave.

Spam, then my commentary

From:Mike Johnson
RUE 25 MACCORY
ABIDJAN-COTE D'IVOIRE.
WEST AFRICA

Dear [recipient],

My name is Mike Johnson from Sierra Leonian. I am 20 years old and a student. Please I would
like you to assist me as urgent as you can,before they kill me.My father is a wealthy cocoa
merchant.Trouble began early last two year when my father's associates began suspecting that my father is not givingn proper accounts of all the tonnes of cocoa being cultivated by local
farmersn in some villages.

This mistrust deepens between Oct-Sept, 2004 when they discovered avery large some of money my father deposited with a Bank here in ABIDJAN-COTE D'IVOIRE (FORMALLY IVORY
COAST in West Africa. As a result of this discovery and the envy on the money he was poisioned by his associates.At his hospital bed ,he revealed to me the reasons of his sickness and directed me where to get the documents of the said deposit which he made on my name as the next of
kin,being the only child.He dvised me that in case he die, that I should not stay in this
country Sierre Leone because his associates will equally kill me hence my mother had died five
years ago of breast cancer.

He also instructed that if he dies, I should look for a foreign partner who will help me to transfer the money out of this place (Abidjan Cote d'Ivoire), to his account and the person will help
me to invest the money in that country. Based on this, I had to contact you
bearing in mind that you will be humane enough to protect my life. My father finally died on the 5th of june,2005 and since then, I was out of school and went into hiding because
of my father's asociates. All the relevant documents of the $8.000,000.(Eight Million United States Dollars) that was deposited in a Commercial Bank by my late father, are with me now.

I will give you 15% of the total money, if you can help me transferring it into your Account, for onward investment in your country. Please contact me immediately with the above E-mail address and include your telephone and Fax numbers to enable me send you all necessar
documents asregards the money before they kill me. It is a risk free transaction.

I'm waiting for your urgent reply.

Best regards.sincerely,

Mike Johnson

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"I went into hiding", so that's why he's typing it! It also explains why he correctly spells words in one place and then incorrectly in other places. "Sierra Lionan ... of the said documents", wow! I can imagine so many other nation using these phrases. Gosh, I should honestly trust some one I don't know who has the name, "Mike Johnson" who is a Sierra Lionan; with this "risk free transaction". Yeah, I'll hop right on that. I guess he got the idea from the Nigerian prince.

Why Africa? I suppose because it is a technological island; isolated and a very large continent with many nations -- generally poor and in turmoil. I can imagine a Madagascar prince emailing from the thriving metropolis' there, or, hey, how about rich Ethiopia with thriving kingdoms and stable government. I guess they need to find a fast track to infomercial purchasers.

girl who was so stupid

I was in love with a girl who was so stupid
She said she got shot by some guy cupid
I said I don't care about that
Now let me take shot on that
I was in love with a girl who was so stupid

used eharmony, lovematch, dates dot com
all my dates turned out to eventually bomb
game and charm, money, fame
in the end, it's just me to blame

I was in love with a girl who liked to show me
But what I really wanted her to do was blow me
She'd tease me day and night
and that would make us fight
I was in love with a girl who liked to show me

used eharmony, lovematch, dates dot com
all my dates turned out to eventually bomb
game and charm, money, fame
in the end, it's just me to blame

I was in love with a girl who was a baker
When she made a lot of noise she was a faker
Variety is the spice of life
She said she'd never be my wife
I was in love with a girl who liked to show me

inspired by Girl on LSD by Tom Petty

do homework

do homework
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

I was supposed to do what? I think in school I had a few of these pages, useless save for humor. So, like, this isn't going to help my grade, right?

runners up

"Today the Democratic and Republican primaries were held all across the country. So far, it's evenly split between those who forgot to vote and those who chose not to vote."

 --Conan O'Brien  

IHOP sign

French Toast
Fantasy
Now Hiring

Okay... what does that mean?

Bitchin'!

I wanna boycott because it makes noise! What a load of BS! This is a crowning example of where NAACP really fails to make itself credible. If they would look at the numbers, there is no real reason to throw a fit. Then F 'em, don't build there and let them exercise atrition onto their "constituents". What a ruddy bother, why put forth the time to type it? Oh, look ... they started using blue ink in the newspaper, that must be racially motivated.

madness course 101

I've been with thousands of beers, throughout all these years

....

I keep drinking and peeing and peeing and drinking, and always too soon!

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searching for analogy

I couldn't find a comparably bad horror film to relate it to Hills Have Eyes, until I saw Cerpicio's blog, then remembered Cabin Fever. Now that had terrible with horrorible, splashed grossly with wretched. I suppose it was better than Cabin Fever, but only that it had better special effects. As a side note: Hills Have Eyes had the serial killer from Silence of the Lambs ("Hannibal the Cannibal" helps find man sewing woman suit), captured by mutant cannibals. How ironic! He also plays the detective on Monk (series on USA) -- Ted Levine.

wrongful use of information

"Since you previously purchased a book by Lemony Snicket, we wanted to let you know that the author's new book, The Beatrice Letters (A Series of Unfortunate Events), is now available. Order your copy today. Of course, as a Member you'll save 10%."

 

Barnes and Noble shows why tracking is bad and the mild implications it can have.  Why would I want them to track my purchases?  Who else has access to my purchases?  That's plain evil!  I guess the lesson here is, don't buy where they "temp" you with like-purchases.  Now, had I bought a CAR, which is $14K - $65K, I might understand a couple of years later, they send you a card wondering if you might want to "upgrade" or "upscale" your vehicle.  When they track $5 purchases, that is truly scary.  What then does the grocery store do?  Do they send me carrot coupons because I buy a lot of veggies, or new BOLD laundry detergent advertisements?  Tp Barnes and Noble for a year of spamming and now purchase tracking, I give an F or single finger flying flag, if you get my metaphor.

The Hills are Alive with the sound of shit!

My word! Hills Have Eyes is like watching Bad Taste wihtout the humor and and the dialogue of Chucky, mixed a Troma film. What the? I suppose, for lack of a better anaology: X-files with interbreeding family of many generations expanded into a full-length movie noting nuclear testing as cause of mutations (stubborn miners who wouldn't leave). Gee, sound famiar Louisianna?

I would strongly recommend against this movie, unless you want to turn people off from movies, in which case it works great for that project.

In other news

I need to wind down -- slowed with time (no, that never works), alcohol can, sleep is better, but that is a long away dream. I slept well for about 2 hours this morning, then the morning began and my wonderful sleep was necessarily interrupted and moving, planning and other things began. Of course, ending in Mother returning home, it was worth it. The bathroom plans were hit and miss and there is still work to do.

Home

After 3 weeks and lots of pain and suffering, mother has returned; somewhat victoriously home.

uh, hyuk yuck yuck yuck

Uh, yep ... Indiana looks bad yet again. Just once, I'd like something positive to be shown about this state ... once, is that much to ask? Cerpicio sent this to me.

Yippie Kai Aye!

MR found that he had two copies of Die Hard (original) and gave me a copy.  Thanks MR!  I have yet to watch it, but will see it again soon.  It's a super-unrealistic movie, but it's good.  I like Alan Rickman, am so-so on Bruce Willis.  The now-dead Fabio from Money Pit is unfunny here, but makes for a good evil henchman.

 

Now I have the movie ... Ho Ho Ho!

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I am trying to get Hills Have Eyes (2006) to see how rotten it is.  I am not paying for a rental on a movie that is likely as bad as George Foreman Grill infomercial.  While I was at MR's we saw a bit of a Jet Li movie that was terrible.  It had Bob Hoskins lending a few Roger Rabbit jokes.  "For all the times you kicked my ass?"  Jet Li has since announced his "last martial arts epic".  What does that mean?  Does that mean, no more bouncing ever or mearly no more Oddessey/Illiad Jet Kune Do?

Phase out

According to personnel and staff at the rehab hospital, Mom is doing so fine with independance athat she might be discharged mid-week, rather than end of week. The doctors and staff are meeting today to discuss her progess and likely discharge date. It may be in a couple of days -- Thursday, but no final word is yet available.

I'm glad that she worked hard for this. Generally, she is lazier and not interested in helping herself. Here, she either changed her heart or faked well an interest in growing. She's courteous with staff, obliging. She's tired often, but well. It will be good when she leaves and can work at home and live better with more flexiblity.

Father has been ill -- allergies and possible cold. I hope that he finally rests and wins the battle of colds with the cocktail and buffet of meds he has at his disposal. Where she will do out-patient rehab is still up in the air. I will have to talk with her case manager about where, when, how long (ballpark).

Be good patriot

I'm afraid that I'm a good patriot not because I watched the hours of memorial services or highlights (I didn't watch any of that), nor that I wear red-white-blue clothes on national holidays (I don't), nor because I fly a flag on the front of the house (I don't). I'm a good patriot because I believe in the US, despite its shortcomings. I love my country and its ideals. If you have to label yourself, it's likely that others can't see you as you claim to be. Wearing crosses and crucifixes by people so sinful that you'd more likely believe they were athiest or evil influence warping the minds of others ("the force has a strong influence on the weak minded"). Drug using, dealing, raping, murdering, assaulting people (60 some percent of rap) aren't followers of peace and love whether they claim Christianity, Judism or Islam).

I'm sad that "then you're with the terrorists" is used as a perfunctory statement like "Snowball did it", but with the childish strength of "I don't like you anymore. I'm not playing with you anymore." This defining phrase really underscores lies and ill-will propoganda.

Freedom should be important -- I don't remember having a memorial service for the return of the hostages in Iran, held for over 400 days. I don't remember having a memorial service for those killed by neo-nazi extremists (McVey, et al.) I'm pointing out that you keep memorials in your own ways. Televising it like a parade (parade gets less coverage) calling for "all good patriots" to watch. Sad, sick. People die and evil lives.

The people in NYC were killed by terrorists who could have used 50 planes through the US in many different cities. It is important to remember they died unjustly, as if there were just ways to die. I find it improper to claim victory with the memorial service --- or to claim patriotism because of being there -- or watching it, or broadcasting it. A patriot isn't a person firing fireworks on July 4th, it is a person loving their country.

The "must watch television" coverage of September 11 memorial services should be as optional as the Superbowl. You don't have to watch it, even if you like sports or football. Opting out, doesn't make you unAmerican or unpatriotic.

Standing ovation

Today in mother’s workout, I got to see her stand for periods of time – perhaps ten minutes standing, then five minutes sitting. She played cards while standing. I don’t know the therapy accomplished with that. She got back to room in pain, and I read to her. She had some “throbbing” pain and requested me to rub her legs for moments only. I read some to her and later, she stopped. She fell asleep on her on accord. Shortly before her 11:39 PT she had pain meds and the nurse then requested at-home med sheet. Thankfully I brought this today. The nurse added this to the bundle/file folder of her mess. She predicted that Mom would be out by the weekend. I mentioned to her the penny bet that Father and I had on her discharge date, I bet on Friday, he on Thursday. Though, I don’t know how close she might have come, the nurse guessed Wednesday. Hey, wouldn’t that be grand!

She is in good spirits and is obviously growing strong. Her late morning PT was a little late, as there were some more critical need patients that took longer than expected. In lieu of this, mother spun around and got to be better on her wheelchair. She’s the new NASCAR wheeler, perhaps.

Curse it! I have to finish early … my battery low and no plug in sight in the therapy room. Blast!

So, the big news is that she stood!

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Wow! Some of the ladies here -- yumm... Mom's OT (occupational therapist), suweet! I'd pull a Judd Nelson if she were to ask me, "Where's your lunch?"

Ha! "You're wearing it!"

Anyway -- bitter cold in whole building, you'd think that there was a winter warning outside or a heat warning -- necessitating the too - strong of AC

Wrestling

I saw on SPIKE TV, an ad for Ultimate Fighting (also super wrastling) ... there were four different ladies in tight little outfits, mildly sweaty -- hot! I wondered to myself -- what is the relationship? I finally found it! The viewer is wrestling with sexual frustration!

Burnt lungs

It amazes me how many medical professionals smoke ... what I mind is that they know better -- know that (thankfully I don't have it) asthmatics could suffer greatly as well as many others.

Found / seen in a room

Random bits

While under the veil of pain meds and pain my mother was repeatedly asked her DOB for verification -- right med for right patient; she grew tired of being continually asked. "You'd think you'd right it down" -- quite funny after the fact.

"It hurts, but it's worth it" (regarding her therapy).

"No one's every been happy in the therapy room -- we'd wonder what was going on"; nurse mentioned to us. We had a conversation about switching whiskey for the tea and hence -- less painful, goofy therapy sessions.

Eek! It's a geek!

I saw a copy at Walgreens. I thought it was a joke or a single issue, but I was wrong ... so wrong. Hey, dudes! That movie series is like, um ... probably done.

Not mine

P1100865
Originally uploaded by tinybluetykes.

Somebody has this collection?

Smurf that!

How could it be worse?

how could it be worse
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

So at any given time, it would appear that this is a question I make. That's not really so. I'm not quite the doomsdayer that I present. I am, however looking ever for other routes. I guess I'm generally disenchanted with normalcy or commonplace, but get quickly peeved with things. I gotta change that.

Perhaps I should start digging graves, then finding that not digging graves -- doing almost anything else, would be better so that each day is okay or grand not dismal.

I'm not so down. I'm just not where I want to be; so I struggle, though not with depression. I struggle with stress the Yin and I the Yang (not wang).

So what would I be doing? (from a job posting)

Earn More Than You’ve Ever Earned!

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Our goal is to attract the best people in the industry, then empower them to lead our organization and assist it in its continued growth. We have a long history of creating an atmosphere where you can earn respect, relish in your achievements and experience unlimited growth and earning potential. Finally, our best Market Consultants have a career track that could lead to Sales Management, Sales Training and other key corporate positions.

Our compensation plan is the best in our industry…anywhere in the world. Additionally, we offer a totally unique Lifestyle and Bonus Plan. Our on-going training is unique and effective. We believe in promoting from within. We are presently seeking additional top-level performers to enhance our existing Dream Team.

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WE REQUIRE:

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Flip side

I've slept terribly, worried, then been pissed -- a bevy and ocean of emotions -- tides pulling in and out. After it all, I step back, lie down and am happy that my mom is really okay. There's so serious problem; not now, not soon. It was a build up to steam, and I'm finally winding down.

My now, current ulcer-inducing problem is my unemployment. That now is a thunderstorm. It hurts when I attempt to sleep -- stress eating my stomach.

off comment

There was a nurse or tech who was in the room at hospital. My mother, apparently was sure that she was married (likely through a conversation) stated, "She's married to Dick".
"You got that right", she said pointing to her side -- slightly showing that she was pregnant. Interestingly, she wasn't wearing a wedding band. I drew my conclusion -- draw yours.

Whom I saw

I saw a woman from a school where I often subbed and two-fold, she and her husband attend the folks' church and Sunday School. Their mother is to be admitted to the rehab hospital after her surgery. It was just odd seeing her there. She then remembered that her progress had been announced sometime at church.

Another person I saw there was a cute Physical Therapist; well, married and cute.

Pictures of Rehab

One view of large therapy room

Dayroom, shared by all patients.

Small room, shared with roommate.

One knee with staples removed.

Rehab experiences (incomplete)

The schedule for therapies changes, as do the therapists. There is a job board and each patient is given a daily roster of whom they see and when. The patients, by the third day, are expected to come on their own accord to the designated areas for therapy. They are each, also, responsible for their own pain management and requesting of pain meds.

Mom seems satsified with the place presently. Today was assessment, where the therapists determine her weak areas for study and improvement. She is tired and sore, but I think will work through it just okay. She was not as good in the regular hospital with the thearapists, but I feel here, she will be better.

They have meals always at the same time and she likes the meals there much better than at hospital (main). She used a wheeled walker today and likely will have that upon completion of therapy. Overall, I'm happy with what I have seen, in that they push her to successfully complete in a reasonable amount of days (2-14; average 10).

Father and I returned in the afternoon and Mother was happy that she learned how to use a shower bench to enter the tub for a shower. She did a lot of moving today and was tired early. She found that a walker with wheels worked much better. She still has much to learn and strength to gain.

Good news for her, I found the AC, for her room was, well ... hot.

Yet another move

long day ... Mom is in rehab hospital finally. She is in with a roommate today, but her roommate leaves tomorrow. The room is small, but I feel that she'll be moving around with therapies enough that won't much matter.

The thing that shook me was the mix of school and nursing home feel. Oh, eerie feel of the nursing. If it costs $30,000 annual, as my father suggests to keep a person in nursing home, I'd rather hire a nurse. I hated that feeling -- unnerving.

-- I'm very, very tired ---

Here I was drifting

MR's photo shows a very tired and well-filled me. I also see rock 'm' sock 'm' robots, a sockless foot with big toe pointing, and blonde hair on the left attached to a white sweater.

headlines

"West Nile found in 2 more pools"

 -- that’s a large river

"City officials debate tax prediction"

 -- debating predictions … now there’s waste

"New Haven to add pair of stun guns"

-- putting there where?

"’Intersex’ fish in Potomac raise questions about human effect"

-- swimming causes gaiety?

11 months not 12

Norton promised me 12 months of updates -- liars! This is what I get for the next days until I decide to update. It doesn't update until I renew. I therefore was given 11 months of updates, not 12. Liars!

I'm sure the nurses were singing (changed)

the Eric Cartman, "Kyle's mom" song about my mom. What a witch today! I was happy to have my leave of her when PT came this afternoon.

The good things, if any, this morning were that she got to talk with two of her daughters in Indy. That helped her a bit.

She has blood in her urine, but no doctor explained it -- be it infection or soemthing else. The precentage in urine really isn't high. I'm sure that it's either related to blood thinners or minor infection. She's stronger today that she has been, but today bitter and hostile. My father took the car for an oil change and was happy to find out that he missed some of her feistiness while on that errand.

Perhaps tonight or tomrrow holds happier hours.

profiling

If you are sitting and waiting and waiting and waiting ... your mind tends to drift ... find anything fascinating! I don't often give a care about the persons unknown to me, walking around, but I did see a guy, friendly looking, wearing a hooded sweatshirt and shorts in ninety degree weather. Now ... if you want to look like a drug dealer, that's it! You have the inappropriate clothes (too hot, too cold) to point out you are a beacon for something. Other ways would be to carry no wallet, but cash in a roll; bounce your eyes back and forth as if watching tennis demonstrating paranoia; smell like drugs, and others.

If you dress vegabond, have no money for food, but buy yourself and mate smokes and soda, you set yourself apart for scrutiny. The emergency room has people in need and some are in need of SHOWERING and regular daily hygene. If you have to stand in the smoking section outside of hospital with hospital gown, pole with drip drugs; I've got absolutely no sympathy for your condition at all!

A float nurse today stated that at times there are patients brought in with addictions; so staff sometimes administers the class drug that the patient chemically needs instead of having them go into D.T. leading to cardiac arrest. Ya know ... maybe cardiac arrest wouldn't be a bad thing.

Sewer daytime soap

My sister is constantly telling family of the soap opera of her son's life, daily stupid; all about the drama. I told family that I don't watch soap operas on TV, I certainly don't want to see or hear that one. Like other bad TV, it won't change.
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The soap opera I would like to catch is some of my other sister's family, but then I find that I might not like that either.

In the end, I think I'll take the documentary on one person's line of failures -- mine.

schools of thought

My father is a doomsdayer when it comes to some health issues. He would rather do a messload of procedures and outpatient surgies on my mother to "get her working", regardless the efficacy of it -- risk vs gain. On this subject, he and I cannot talk -- as strong as abortion issue for others. I know she's a surgery risk and the fewer procedures done, the liklier she is to do well or okay.

steps to improvement

My mother is making yet greater strides in improving. She pulled herself up on the walker twice today, at other times needing help. She is more mobile and "with it". Some of her rotten days are a blur and she still has memory jumps, but she is presently highly-medicated.

The cardiologist came in today and stated that he thought that her heart arhymmia wasn't too serious and was planning, likely, to discharge her with oral medicine to thin her blood. He said it would be trial 3 months, perhaps for life, but that is of little cost. It is much better than a semi-invasive or dangerous procedure not quite surgery.

The orthopedics think that she's doing well, but I'm not sure of the physical therapists thoughts. Each group has a different interest in her and each has high goals. She has met the minimum requirements, it seems to be on the track for discharge from hospital to rehab. Certainly there, things will settle closer to normalcy.

I then have installation tasks with my father to outfit the bathrooms with appliances. Her first few baths will be painful, lifting her legs over the full tub-shower. I know that he has a lot of plans in his head. He doesn't share them with me.

I thank eveyone for their prayers, wishes, hopes, support. She is improving at her own speed -- aggrivating for the spectator, but she'll get there.

Who's the guilty party?

One of the funniest conversations with a woman, assistant manager, I had was, "... Who put the penis on the Tom Hanks?"

She instantly started laughing hard about it. She spent five whole minutes not asking, building up the courage to ask me, who put the "penis" on the Tom Hanks standup poster for the Burbs. There was indeed, as I then looked, a penis on the Tom Hanks where a PJ fly might be. Upon closer inspection, it was a sticker that went on a different movie cover. This movie cover was Bad Taste, an EARLY Peter Jackson film. The "penis" was actually a finger sticker meant to make the cover a little less rude that the alien flipping off viewers.

I saw the movie at the library and was instantly reminded of this stupid thing. I think the penis being on the standup for a couple of days wasn't nearly as funny as this poor woman building up the nerve to ask me. I didn't know, later it was told to me by many, the guilty party (TS).

Good work

A Victory for Justice

Over the last 50 years, the psychiatric profes­sion has made a mockery of our criminal justice system. It has gotten to the point that the insanity defense, bolstered by psychiatrists masquerad­ing as expert witnesses, can be invoked any time someone commits a heinous crime.

Thanks to a recent US Supreme Court decision, we may be coming to our senses. In 2003, Arizona courts convicted Eric Clark of first-degree murder for “intentionally and know­ingly” luring a policeman to a parking lot and killing him. The defendant didn’t deny that he killed the officer, but he pled insanity. The state ruled, however, that in order for an insanity plea to stand, the defendant must be incapable of knowing his actions are wrong at the time the crime is committed, and Eric Clark did not meet this criteria.

He appealed, stating that his rights to an insanity defense had been truncated, and his case made it all the way to the US Supreme Court. These astute justices didn’t buy it. They ruled that the state of Arizona was perfectly within its rights of limiting the insanity defense, and Clark was not deprived of a fair trial.  They also put psychiatrists in their place, stating, “No matter how the test for insanity is phrased, a psychiatrist or psychologist is no more qualified than any other person to give an opinion about whether a particular defendant’s mental condi­tion satisfies the legal test for insanity.”

I truly hope this decision will allow other states to wrest the justice system from the fraud­ulent grip of psychiatrists and psychologists.

Job hunitng

I'm still doing it and found that many jobs are posted every weekend, but not during the week. After 3 weeks of posting for these same jobs -- I wonder if there is ... a problem. Today, Labor Day, in celebration of those working -- there weren't any friggin' new jobs psoted. Lovely!

"Skunked again!"+ I will find something soon. I could work better now than last week with the more drama than trauma (Mum post op, and then in ICU). I'll take the drama. I've had the trauma and hated it!

I'm still looking in the FW area, but have expanded to many areas. I'm very concerned about folks, for my sister here in town hasn't the time nor effort to help them with the petty and simple things. I've used several (12 I think) job search enegines, narrowing it after some experience, as some were company-specific and others were just worthless. I think the best jobs aren't listed at all.

MR mentioned to me that I should find a few choice companies that I want to join and tell them how I suit them and work from there. I guess I could work for Coke -- nice, benefits are good, long-standing company. Where do I fit there? I don't know.

+ Christmas Story, Ralphie not finding the orphan Annie de-coder ring in mail

idle mind while driving in third gear (turns from observations to bitching)

I saw a car pull up to a stop that was painted like a "Stinger" car from Grand Theft Auto. I guessed I played that too much. Also, over the course of 9 days, I have seen 22 hawks, some were the same no doubt. Tonight, I saw a deer charge over the road and not get hit.

I have seen several police cars traveling and pulling over drivers. I thankfully am not one of them.

I also am the wall that birds have struck. The car and van I have been driving have been struck by birds on the doors and tonight a bird flew under the wheel of my car. Avian suicide?

Slowed to a crawl, walking to and from hospital parking lot, I helped an obese woman get something from the floor. She had a tough enough time while in the wheelchair, I know it would have been impossible if she had to lean or bend over -- belly getting in way and cutting off diaphram. I am bothered by the smokers at hospital, as there are no-smoking areas that are generally ignored by **shole smokers. I did see a woman courteous enough to smoke in her car. The bad thing the windows were open.

I'm not asthmatic, but if I were, I'd have issue with the smokers at the door and hospital not enforcing the smoking areas. I think that I should extinguish the flames with a fire extinguisher, claiming that I thought the smokers were on fire. If they want to kill themselves -- use a rope, it's faster and still sufficates the suicide slowly.

I have been to hospital so often, I have helped people around, for -- at times, I have little else to do, other than sit and wait. Now that my visiting hours availabily have changed, I'm far more free. The unit where she is, is far less strict. My father and I had been driving there and back 4-5 times daily. We went and stayed twice today -- much better for a longer time than 3 days combined at ICU.

Walkin' away

Mother is making greater strides. She felt urgency and walked, painfully, to the bathroom. Who you don't see in the picture is Thomas pushing the pole, for Lois cannot use a walker and pull the pole.

Earlier with the physical therapist, she walked to the nurses' desk and then into the hallway, erecting a flag to mark her achievement. The orthopedic PCA (patient care assistant; aka nurse's aide, aka; tech -- who might very well have a masters) came to see Lois today and was pleased with her range of motion. Her also wants her now to work on straightening her legs/knees, very imporant for standing.

The good news is, she might be moved yet again tomorrow or Wednesday -- to rehab, but nothing is certain.

This morning she was grumpy, but she settled down. I'd say for a 70 year-old, she's doing pretty well on two new knees. My stress level went down a notch.

Steve Irwin

What surprised me, and likely others, is that he didn't die in the jaws of a large predator or mauled in some grizzly way. He didn't even drown, which would be more likely with a ray sting. He died in a rare instance that a stinger caught him in the chest.

Although I think often, he was too rough on animals, he goal was to educate people on a number of species, but mostly the crocodile and other reptiles. His heart was good, though he was a goof and a nut. I guess people will miss his antics and others still a good spokesperson for reptiles, however wild and zany.

I will still use two phrases, "Crikey!" and "Danger; danger; danger!", sprinkled with, "Poised; ready to strike!"

lack of patience in patient

Here, my father is feeding her (Monday, Sept. 4, 2006, Labor Day). She can do fine herself, but it was good that he had something to do -- as he is busy thinking and not doing, driving him mad.

She is reading the diabetic menu here, obviously conscious and in pretty good shape, but the order was sent up wrong -- imagine that!

My mom is a terrible patient. She has been grumpy and pissy the last couple of days. If they nurses are slow to get to her, it's likely because she is a witch to them. She has a cornucopia of pain meds to take. If I took was she was taking I would be nausiated and comatose: vicodin, percocet, skelaxon, darvocet, loratab. Some aren't taken concurrently, so there are gaps, but there is vitually no time that some pain meds are out of her system. I thought that the PT would be bad, but I think the chemical rehab might be step 3, for weening her off the pain meds might be scary and unfun for all.

rook moved

She was mad at the nurses at ICU. It is nice that she got moved out of there. She was in one room, but some of her orthopedic equipment would not easily fit, so they found another room -- quite large for her. She's in good care, healthy except for heart arhythmmia with aortic flutter; though common, still worth checking on a person her age with history of heart attacks. I have no bloddy clue when she'll get out.

She threw a bit of a tantrum today because she felt she was rooked. I think the nurses got the shorter end.

no fair shake

I have seen some companies that "wanted" to give me the time of day -- interview, etc. I see that they are still posting for jobs. I wonder, then, if it panned out better than I didn't get a job with them. Some companies have 8 some listings daily. I'm not sure what that says about the companies themselves. They would give me a fair shake, only I didn't know it wasn't a fair company.

Clear as mud

I didn't know that I was so very unclear in my blogs. I type and post when I think of it, but apparently "thinking" isn't involved in my posts.

.........

I really don't know what they are really going to do with Mom, as there are enough rumors and inuendos, hints and allegations, that you'd think it was Watergate. I know that Mom is really relatively fine. She's 95 percent clear in the head, doing well to very well in her physical therapy and has great care. In her present room ICU she shares a nurse with just one other patient. Other floors, I believe the ratio is 4 patients for 1 nurse.

There are rumors or suggestions that, since her heart arhythmia might pose s lifelong problem (though not fatal by any means), she'll be moved to a telemetry unit. This might be good, but from my experience, meaningless as there aren't a greater number of doctors there either. Her cardiologist doesn't seem to be knocking himself out to see her to render ANY decision as to where she goes. Her orthpedic surgeon and doctor group have stated clearly that they'll sign off on her release to the rehab hospital, for their "part" is complete.

She might move, she might not. The doctors, "The Lord Cometh -- like a thief in the night!"+, appear when I'm not there to question them. I ask the nurses and often they don't know any more than I do. My mother is also left in the lurch. So, I'm left with questions, concerns and hints that they might move her. I really know little at this point.

I'm happy that she has more concentrated care where she is and am very thankful for all the prayers and love sent to her and family. She's doing very well and is in good spirits for being in hospital for so long. As for me -- I'm chewing on my tongue and gritting teeth -- I'm out of gum. I can't solve the stress, it's built up to new heights, then falls slightly. It is a long coaster ride. Some dips in my stress are that Father sleeps better now and I can sometimes hold a conversation with him.

+ Blues Brothers, James Brown sermon before "Old Landmark"

I don't know why -- stupid headlines

You might ask, why this is funny, I don't know -- syntax?

Army recommends death in Iraq slayings

--- news --- petty, evil

Suspect charged in burglary of zoo Subway

An 18-year-old man accused of stealing meat, cheese and potato chips from a restaurant at the [city] Children’s Zoo was formally charged Tuesday with burglary.

Cale Carnahan, of the 3700 block of Schele Avenue, broke into the zoo about 9:30 p.m. Aug. 10 and forcibly entered the Subway within the property, a probable cause affidavit said. Carnahan took several packages of meat, cheese and several bags of potato chips, the affidavit said.
Carnahan was being held at the County Jail in lieu of $10,000 bail.

--- and this man's alive, why ---

Finally, a man told police that at about 10 p.m. his 6-year-old daughter was molested by a registered sex offender. The man said the girl hit his face when he tried to kiss her goodnight because she thought he was another man who touches her, a police report said. Police confirmed the man is a convicted sex offender and registered and made plans to contact him. The offender’s identity was not released in the report.

--- replace each instance ---

With two incumbents declining to seek re-election, there’s a 10-way race for two at-large seats and a three-way contest for the District 1 post. In addition, incumbent Kweku Akan faces a challenge from Kevin Brown for the District 4 seat.

not mine

DSC06988
Originally uploaded by Cerpicio.

I sleep in a bed, mine, but feel that visits to hospital convert it to this -- unkept and seedy place.

Thanks Cerpicio!

full of

While in hospital, Mum drinks quite a bit of water.  The nurses must "account" and record the volume of her urine output.  They were all amazed at the patient Niagra.  One nurse had to drump two full containers from the catheter bag.  In the end, I can summarize that she's full of **is and vinegar.

 

I believe that she'll have extrafamiliar guests this weekend, but times and persons are really -- well, a mystery.

Extrance exam

What happens after you die? Ultimately, there is no real entrance exam -- merely you physically terminating then ... there you go.

Mom might be moved to a cardiac telemetry unit, she might be moved there this weekend, what they do there I don't know. I thought that I knew something, but it must have been a breeze. I'm back to square one with what they will do and plan to do and what is important..

Mom's alive, conscious (thinking mostly clearly), doing well, doing physical therapy, but her heart's a mess. I couple this with blood sugar levels of a diabetic and blood pressure issues, and I see her in hospital for a while still. She is, thankfully, in good care and in no immediate danger. I'm not too worried, but there is, really, doubt and fear of the unknown.

I guess I'm resting better, but I'm feeling lousy. I liken it to the SAT's -- you do your best, it's a stupidly long time, you don't get results right away. It's important, but the significance is never expressed in perceivable terms. I'm wrong; it's not the test you take, but rather the test your friend takes. You have no effort in it, just hopes, fears.

MR wanted to end most messages with, "poon tang", I think I might start "signing off" with "Damnit"

Thanks God!

I close,
Damnit!

I don't know F'ing squat

I thought that Mom might be able to be discharged from ICU to rehab hospital -- that was wrong.  I then then she would be sent from ICU to ortho floor again, that again, may be wrong.

 

The doctors may have to shock heart into corect rhythm, but that too is conjecture.  Her inconsistent heart rhythm isn't a big deal, but they may opt to make it "right".

 

In lighter news, I have given up on really sleeping.  I don't really do it anyway, why put forth the effort?

Whoa!

agasp
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

I got into an elevator with my father to go see Mum in hospital. I would take the stairs, but they are nowhere near the section where she is, and ... my father can't do stairs very well, as he's 70 ... I'll give him a pass.

Well, two people got on, who each were about twice my weight. When the floor button was pushed, there was a sound, creek, lurch, but the car rode to the 3rd floor. Instinctively, I terribly looked at the load limit, which the four of us never came close. I'm so ashamed, "Oh sure, blame the fat ones!"

H (surname) H (health) N(news)

Father and I went to see Mom last night.  She was yet, even better stronger (bionic, though not working for the government).  I was mislead or presumed too much in thinking that she would be directly moved from ICU to rehab.  The orthopedic doctor (intern, approved by lead doctor) stated that she would move back to the orthopedic floor for a few days, then to the rehab hospital.

 

Hey ... more days at the hospital, joy of joys.  The good news there, is realistic visiting hours.  It's likely a 7-9 or 8-8 schedule with less strict guidelines.  It isn't clear when that will happen, but guesses and rumors are within a couple of days.

 

I sleep but don't rest, and father rests but doesn't sleep.  I'm mentally okay, but sore and he's physically okay (though weakened by poor sleep) but groggy.

 

Also good, is that Mother has a good rapport with the nursing staff.  They are all wonderful!

30 percent

30 percent
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

How did you do on your pre-calculus test?
33 percent!

Alright! Yes! Cool! Unfortunately, unlike these girls, I had no Bonklers group shooting for miraculous high or incredulous low scores.

These are their English scores.

Step Workout

Mother was working a bit this morning on her PT, self-guided, with wincing. The physical therapist was due to come in later on this morning. She is working a little harder.

She is still in ICU for high blood pressure, which seems -- at the moment, to be lowered. She also has arterial fibrillation a type of heart arrhythmia. It is not serious and is common. She has a history of heart arrhythmia and heart problems. The cardiologist hasn't yet come in today, but will assess her yet again. It is with high hopes that she is sent to the rehab soon.

The surgeon seems pleased with the knees and pops in, for maybe moments, then leaves. Mum's not sure on him, as he looks very short at her knees to make an assessment.

She has had a few surprise guests, including Pastor Keith from the church and Don, from the Sunday school class. There are many prayers for her. Pastor Keith mentioned that there are four people from church in hospital this week.

Mom seems in good spirits, all things considered, but is still a bit confused at times, though clearer. She has a devil of a time sleeping, so takes meds (some low to mid level narcotics) to rest well and lessen pain. These, I feel, are a cause of her confusions, delusions, hallucinations. Her fears and hallucinations are much, much less than before.

She is lucid and talks freely and is seeking more home and creature comforts for her room in ICU. I hope and pray that she gets out of there soon. She is only one drop that keeps her there, and that can be an oral medicine. She is off the nitro drip that kept her there.

Waste of bottle and contents (formerly titled "Winking")

My father and I went to Carlos O' Kelly's for lunch today. I saw a Jose Cuervo tequilla pinata. Do you smash it and little bottles come out, or glass and liquid? What sort of pinata is this? I would note: i Aviso! Keep away from flame!

-- I thought of winking because of the glare on the glass. I had previously uploaded the picture unconventionally and it outright didn't work.

jet birds

Coincidence can be funny.  There were a few International Guard pilots practicing and learning today, so I heard jets for several minutes.  There was a flock of birds that were fleeing something, but flew in a tight cyilnder pattern toward the back of the house.  The jet sounds were in the background, making for a momentary, but funny sight -- jet-poowered birds.

Jump Jive Wail away

Brian Setzer doesn't need to put this to music. My mother today did quite a bit a of work on her PT and the Physical Therapists stated that for bi-lateral (both) knee replacement recipient; she's doing about average. Her problems aren't in the relearning to walk, but rather in controlling her blood sugar (she isn't cheating), and getting her blood pressure and heart rate to real levels. They have her on many meds to control the BP, but they still aren't enough. She can't leave ICU until she's off IVs, and so there she stays.

My father is not dealing with it. He "looked like a tick, about to exploded"+. He sleeps worse than I do, or rather he can't think of speak at his level of stress and restlessness. I sleep poorly, but have gotten used to it -- whatever that means. I think he's remain a mess until she's discharged from ICU. ICU is also a pain in that they have no long visitation periods. In minutes it goes 30, 30, 60, 30, 90, 30 spread throughout the day. The patient isn't capable of sleeping because of background noise, pestering about meds, vitals, confort. It is a real treat there, I tell you.

I saw the tail end of her PT today. She nearly cried, but she merely winced and was flat-out worn and spent. She actually rested during a visiting time, so I popped in, sat, watching her sleep with heavy and quick breaths. Her heart rate is way too high for resting. She complained of wheezing today. The stress of being there isn't helping her get out.

Fire then hire

Canterbury Schools is now hiring middle school teacher, I wonder how/why.

all about the Drama

My sister called her daughter "drama queen" yesterday.  I suppose that isn't bad, considering that she knows (and does) the symptoms and characteristics.

 

"You know what I'm going to get you for Christmas Mom?  I'm gonna get you a cross; so that whenever you feel unappreciated, you can just nail yourself up on it for everyone to see."+

 

My sister likes martyrdom, "the hours are good and [she] like[s] the pay"++.  I've understood her feelings/need for the drama.  I don't think she was missing attention, though another sister got more of it, through trouble-causing.

 

+ Ref, movie

++ Law & Order episode where a stand-up comic is suspected of his wife's murder; the quote in in reference to being an SOB, for wife beating (and other abuses)

shaved with a blender

I shaved today and masacred my face.  It looks mangled, well ... I can tell, many others wouldn't notice.  I gueess I shouldn't try to use bladed items when tired and stressed in the background.

Map to the stars

As I pulled into the parking garage, a man gave me a hospital campus map. I was going to "tell him [I've] already got one", but since he was likely a volunteer, that wasn't nice. I took it and parked the car. I just thought it odd, since I found my way around, why I would need a map now, but that's no big deal. In my mind -- map to the stars' homes, like patient 23A19, TK421, and more.

The expansion of the campus might make it difficult to master navigation, for say 10 minutes, then you're completely in control, unless you're a fool and/or a bad driver.

zombies

Father didn't play golf yesterday. His partner didn't want to play in gloom and mist. A couple of players went on to experience heavier rain before quitting. Father also finsihed early with poker -- not winning and came home to rest. This morning, he looked unrested. On the way back from hospital, he was blinking often. I was driving, making the trip less scary.

Mother wasn't rested. She was loopy with sleeplessness, pain meds, and other meds. She ate more of a meal today. Last night, she tried the veggie lasagna and ate it pretty well. She had "perfect shaped" french toast which she ate most. Her appettite is slowly returning. She's plain tired of being there, I can't blame her. Her vitals are still high yielding yet another day there in ICU.

She is also experiencing "sub" week, in that two of her regular doctors have substitutes this week (those fellow doctors working in a group). I don't think she likes that too well.
.......
I am now trying to switch from coffee to juice whenever possible. It can be a little less acidic and destructive, but not always. My stomach is still queazy most of the time. I caught 7 minutes of sleep at hospital and felt rested this morning until I sat down again, then the blanket of grogginess hit me again. Between my father and I, my father is the worse for wear. He dislikes hospitals and doesn't really know what to do. He's used to giving commands -- directing, but here, now -- nothing. He's in control of squat! In this matter, he's neutered and it isn't a pretty sight.

I am suffereing, but less so, because I have had practice with pain and sorrow and loathing. I also have a job that I must take -- stone, for Father and family are jello or water. They can erode me with time, but I stand firm and must be different.

Consumed

Sometimes I feel much like Hercules, where problems-hydra swallows me whole. Despite my valiant effort to lop off the head, more problems arise in it's place, either of equal size or equal ferociety. In the end, despite my strength and would-be skill, it is luck and naivity that saves me.

on whose side is it?

Blog this photo

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Flickr or blogspot is failing me, sadly not for the last time.

stupid, funny humor by late night

“Oh, sure, you can have snakes on a plane, but shampoo and toothpaste...forget it.” --David Letterman

….

“David Hasselhoff was arrested for driving under the influence. Cops thought Hasselhoff could be under the influence when they noticed his talking car was slurring its words.” --Conan O’Brien  

 

crooks and crocks

Dear [my name],

Our human resources department recently viewed the résumé you have posted online. We are Next Generation Solutions, a national advertising, consulting, and marketing company. We help our customers find online solutions for their advertising and marketing programs. I feel you may be the right candidate for the Advertising Executive position that we have available in your local area.

An Advertising Executive will work with our creative team to develop marketing (online and traditional) strategies for our clients. Our clients range from small businesses to Fortune 500 companies. Strategies include advertising and PR campaigns. Our goal is to provide each client with a custom solution to meet the client's goal below the budget the client has set.

The person we are seeking must be creative and be able to think outside the box, yet cognitive of real world budgets and client objectives. We are looking to provide clients with campaigns that bring results, not awards.

We offer the following compensation package:

• $65,000 annual base salary
• Quarterly bonuses based on performance
• Medical benefits
• Tuition reimbursement
• Rapid advancement opportunities
• 401-K
• Paid vacation and sick leave

If you feel this position may be right for you, please click on the link below and complete the online application:

------- from the same company -------------
Dear [my name],

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Hospital fling

Mother had PT and hated it, but apparently did very well. They didn't have her do it in the afternoon. Her friend, Betty, came in while Betty herself was in hospital. Her daughter Patsy was there. Betty is unsure about moving to rehab hospital. Mother seemed optimistic.

She was in good spirits, but was very sore. She liked her first meal today -- veggie lasagna. She favors the diabetic sweets though, pudding, cheesecake. She did more time on the auto bending machines. Her pain is less, but her work is greater. She is to move more and has a series of exercises that she is to do. She has a tendency not to do them. I believe that she now realizes that the PT (physical therapists) are not the enemy, but rather assisting and insisting.

She hasn't really slept, so that hopefully is in the works tonight. She doesn't watch TV as much of it is crud and crude. She gets pestered at least every hour, usually more often.

Father, needing a break, went golfing today. The weather was continually misty today, but they all went. He was to follow that with poker. He hinted that he may not make it all night, but would try. He is still looking groggy and sleepy.

I found the hospital courtesy wi-fi helpful.

I haven't slept well, but have higher hopes tonight. I started blinking around 12 something last night, but this morning it felt like a large stone on me, holding me fast to my bed. This come, leave, come, leave bit doesn't make it any better. When she's off the ICU, I'll rest better. Visitors will get to stay. Her blood pressure is still too high, she's still getting nitro drip -- increased tonight, and her blood sugar is 200 + every reading.

She'll be here for a while.

Botany Bay

Botany Bay
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

Damn! I've got to get out of there! I think that this year would be a bad year to be a male teacher. Hey, he touched my scalp in a wrong way! I think that he's flirting with me when he calls me up to the desk for my poor test grades.

under arrest

under arrest
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

Another pedophile arrested, this time in FW -- teacher at Cantebury Green. He likes little boys.

"Senior Pastor Ron Allen of Heartland Community Church, 1025 Vance Ave, where Smith previously volunteered and helped youth pastors, said he believed the allegations will be disproved.

“This is old news,” said Allen, who noted everybody works in teams at the church so nobody is ever alone with children. “I knew about this probably since 2002. This is going to be a non-event. When I talked to the people in Kokomo, they’ve said if there was anything to the charges, something would’ve come out of them in 2001.”"

So, this pastor knew of the allegations in 2001, then went ahead and kept him with kids. Five years later, the same kid comes forward -- lie, perhaps not.

lovely pinnacle

sleepines -- may I rest in peace

something about nothing, sleepless me

I'll ramble from here on out -- bare with me or ignore it all.

 

My age, as it is -- midlife, makes dating difficult.  There are many women my age and age area (within 7 years), but .... so many are married.  Couple this with no 30-40s some safe dating area where there aren't -- are you gonna marry me before we kiss, or I'm fine with you, as long as you don't mind the U-Haul of emotional baggage I carry (for both sexes and genders).

 

I saw a woman tonight that was cute ... nice, damnit -- married!  One piece of advice; if you don't want to have persons/people stare at your butt --- don't have a cute one, don't advertise it with underwear that show through your clothes.

 

I think that I'm a little wiser on the Jacob Marley entering the scene with clanking chains that are the ones forged in life, link by link, chain by chain, yard by yard ... and there is the "baggage".  I think that, although I have Spiderman-level of hangups, I'm not toting around so many chains.  It would be nice to find someone of the same calibur -- though a bit of my opposite.

 

I'm not interested in a Jessica Simpson (or her character) pretty and completely stupid -- that's a rose that needs lost of weeding and tending.  I also wouldn't want a woman so interested in thinking that intimacy (more than, but including physical) would be "wasteful".

 

I guess -- I'd like Leila (from Furturama) who myoptically pilots a delivery ship and who can compassionately kick my ass.

confidence high

I, and I alone, visited my mother last night in hospital.  She was in fairly good spirits.  It took a couple of hours to get an IV person to get the blood into her veins.  She was given two more units of blood, as after two days of waiting, the numbers came back still a little low.  She took less pain meds today.

 

My father is a wreck, but I'm around so that he can unwind with some golf and poker.  He's in a weekly golf league on Tuesdays and plays poker about every other week on Tuesday.  He was plain whipped so I went to hospital and saw mom.

 

There is a woman there, pacing unable to do much, while her husband is to undergo heart surgery again.  She looks my age, but I understand that she's fifty (she hides it very well).  I could do little but wave to her.  Still, she paces.

 

I found that, when I get a chance to walk -- it's much like a full marathon, shedding weight from my shoulders and back, feeling better -- then slump, back into waiting.  My eyes feel heavy, but I can't sleep well.

"I don't know what I'm doing.  No one will tell me.  I think this was a big mistake Grandma.  I don't think I belong here."+

 

 

+ Platoon

As a simple side note, my brother-in-law wrote to the folks, graciously thanking them for the birthday card and gift.  His year is another round of BS and that's not bachelors.  I read the letter to Mom, and I dare say that his letter was hurried, as it was a tad difficult to read.  Mind you, I can read preschool writing.  His broad loops -- old French style, made it an interesting, but challenging bit.

 

Much to Mother's worry and bewilderment, is that her friend, Betty will be discharged from same hospital on Wednesday, there transferred to rehab, though different than Mother's prospective rehab hospital++.  Mom may or may not see her again soon.

 

Betty's daughter must decide where Betty is to go.  Her daughter's hands are "full" with many other obligations.  On top of that, Betty is not interested in assisted living -- nor are most/all patients in nursing homes.

 

++ assignment of rehab hospitals is based on:  need, criteria, ratios.

1.  need -- can patient do rehab in other fashion, not in-house

2. basis of need -- phsyical, neurological

3. New to me:  ratios.  There are some facilities that must maintain ratios of say (percentages picked out of thin air) 62% physical rehab (limb removal, replacement), 25% neurological (e.g.: siezure), 12% other (other prosthetic like eye, inner eye, etc.).  So, a building can't be 100% hip and knee replacement patients.

 

That's crazy, but that's insurance policy/demands, and government standards for payout.

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It is very, very, likely that Mother will be at the campus rehab at Lutheran, but that hasn't been made as she's not yet in her standard room.

machines

Mother is improving and she is "attached" to machines that bend her knees.  She isn't doing as much on PT as they would like, so they are using machines to do it for her.  She claimed that it wasn't too bad -- felt good.  I'm sure that she was stiff, but isn't up to lifting her legs and doing much of anything on her own.

 

She's clearer, focussed and hoping and dreaming of going to REHAB hospital soon.  I think that it'll be later, perhaps next Monday, as her Pulse, Heart rate and Blood Pressure are all too high, despite a nitro drip and a couple other meds.  The doctors came about to see her, ensuring her that she won't sleep.  In a retort to a doctor who came in while she was drifting off to sleep, "how can I".

 

She's in better spirits.

How the world turns

It appears that my mother is improving.  She is clear(er) than she has been.  She is in pain only from the PT, but she is improving.  I have been driving my father and myself back and forth to hospital several times daily.

 

I thank everyone for their wishes and prayers and will contact people later when these ICU crappy times ebb, in favor of a new matrix -- regular room and longer visiting times.

Nightmare

On Friday, my mother experienced a psychotic episode. It was terrible to experience. To make things worse, my niece needed a ride, my sister who couldn't handle my mom's psychotic episode didn't know how to get to the school. Sadly, I had to leave her there and it tore her to shreds. I then had to tell my father, but he took some news better than I thought. He's sleepless and looks like Hell. I am thankful I am driving him.

Sadly, I have so many frustrations and no way to solve them. My two sisters from Indy area are up here, otherwise I might better be able to deal with my stress in a loud way. Again, I bury my problems to release the emotional pandora's box later.

I must be strong -- I didn't ask for it.
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The psychotic episode was brought on by at least four main factors: pain from double-knee replacement surgery and back spasms, dangerously high blood pressure, high blood sugar (she's diabetic), possible reaction to four pain medications she was taking.

While I will never forget it, my mother has no recollection of it. Good for her, it might affect her badly to know what happened.

Holes!

If only it were a happy-ending movie about juvenille boys in a correctional detention center in the desert looking for hidden treasure. No, it is about the holes in my stomach that are growing. I've not had my stomach checked, but I feel the holes -- acid, burning, despite my eating Tums and Pepcid AC like candy. If I could find a way out of stress, I could eliminate the pain once and for all, but that isn't soon coming.

My sleep is in theory only. I rest, I lie in bed, but never feel rested.

My mother was moved from one unit to the ICU for a dangerously high blood pressure. When I left her tonight, she was in some pain, but her blood pressure was just fine. She's still delusional, but has longer periods of somwhat effective communication. It is taking a toll on my father.

I predict that she'll be transferred out of ICU back to the regular unit tonight or tomorrow.
I wish I smoked.