Clear as mud

I didn't know that I was so very unclear in my blogs. I type and post when I think of it, but apparently "thinking" isn't involved in my posts.

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I really don't know what they are really going to do with Mom, as there are enough rumors and inuendos, hints and allegations, that you'd think it was Watergate. I know that Mom is really relatively fine. She's 95 percent clear in the head, doing well to very well in her physical therapy and has great care. In her present room ICU she shares a nurse with just one other patient. Other floors, I believe the ratio is 4 patients for 1 nurse.

There are rumors or suggestions that, since her heart arhythmia might pose s lifelong problem (though not fatal by any means), she'll be moved to a telemetry unit. This might be good, but from my experience, meaningless as there aren't a greater number of doctors there either. Her cardiologist doesn't seem to be knocking himself out to see her to render ANY decision as to where she goes. Her orthpedic surgeon and doctor group have stated clearly that they'll sign off on her release to the rehab hospital, for their "part" is complete.

She might move, she might not. The doctors, "The Lord Cometh -- like a thief in the night!"+, appear when I'm not there to question them. I ask the nurses and often they don't know any more than I do. My mother is also left in the lurch. So, I'm left with questions, concerns and hints that they might move her. I really know little at this point.

I'm happy that she has more concentrated care where she is and am very thankful for all the prayers and love sent to her and family. She's doing very well and is in good spirits for being in hospital for so long. As for me -- I'm chewing on my tongue and gritting teeth -- I'm out of gum. I can't solve the stress, it's built up to new heights, then falls slightly. It is a long coaster ride. Some dips in my stress are that Father sleeps better now and I can sometimes hold a conversation with him.

+ Blues Brothers, James Brown sermon before "Old Landmark"