He's asking to die

Let's oblige him!
John Karr, calling out that he is the murderer (and rapist), and is a pedophile. I'd say you get anything off him you can, kill him, then check out facts later. Personally, I don't think he's guilty, but I'm gonna pull a three-headed giant on him, "Let's kill him anyway!" Rather than state that, then look around for him, after he quickly ran away. Remember Ted Bundy -- escaped from prison to rape and murder more.

"I am so guilty! I'm so guilty! I did it"
[blam]
"Thanks! We'll look into it."

flight ban

Rather than banning chemicals, clothing, all many other things, why not ban terrorists? Since they don't wear uniforms, I'd have to say that continuing with procedures to screen people, checking baggage is certainly necessary, but I think that most Muslims should be disallowed to fly. Boy! Doesn't that sound racist? I would stand by my decision, but remarking, hey ... a group of 20 some persons were going to get on planes bound for Europe and the US and bomb them.

I am not writing that only Muslims do bombings, but ... there is a distinct relationship. I would just ban all Muslims from flying. If they don't like that, then stop killing people, stop trying to kill people, stop bombing. I HARDLY believe that these 20 some people in the most recent case were alone in their plot. There are people out there that either know what is going to happen, likely to happen or some peculiarities. They don't; they rejoice at the death of others, then wonder why Muslims aren't trusted.

There are really, a low percentage of Muslims comitting the (large bomb) crimes, but I think that would just about end if they weren't allowed to fly. That would then translate to disallowing them to be on boat, then perhaps any transportation. That sounds really wicked, really evil, but I'd say that it's time to take off the gloves here.

If France wants little trouble from the Muslim population and still make a stand against terrorism, then the government should fairly buy their property so they could relocate back to the Muslim world away from the evils of Western society.

I think very soon, Muslims will be Muslims greatest enemy and be coralled into ghettos as was done to the Jews and slowly genocided through six generations, ending the religion, which would later be called a long-standing cult, for the victors write the history.
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Israel pulls out of Lebanon and Hezbollah grows stronger. Then, they attack again with more weapons, now having a Lebanese military barrier between it and the Israelis. They'll attack, then scurry back to hiding places or into Jordan or Syria.

The conditional cease fire should be: upon any civilian or military deaths or kidknapping, there will be no cecession of fire and attack until terrorist organizations are removed. If the protection of that organization goes up to the government of a particular nation, then that nation has knowingly embraced it. Therefore, in the minds of other nations, the US by this definition already has supported this.
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Muslims in the Arab world are as likely to riot over something as Los Angles, CA is to riot and loot over the unrelated. The LA riots wound up killing 30-40 people outright, not to mention those that could not be directly attributed to the rioters and looters. Hey! There's an injustice, let's grab that large screen TV to show our displeasure, while we're at it let's take what money's in the till.

Tip to the masses of asses

Statement to Muslims; for "peaceful nature" does not bear out reality.

Get angry; non-Muslims already are.

Non-Muslim will get even when pushed too far.

Reagan roasts

Reagan roasts
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

"And if it hadn't been for Frank (supporting me throughout my campaign), who knows .... I might have become President." At the time of this recording, marked as 1981, but 1970s, he was governor.

Walk Backward

Enter macabe , replay possibilities in head --- outcome never certain, but always the same; what I remember. Betrayed, life improved only after losing then gaining. I've never quite bright, dark and not light, if only I had a dark secret -- at least then I could finger point. Alas, I've no business pointing my finger at anyone. I only wish I had an "alter" spending my energy, gathering money somehow so that I could find that, quash madness and stomp out many flames at once.

Then, thinking about it, maybe I'd rather have the third arm.

In a word -- crappy

It was my week. Borrowing my own money seems to be a difficulty. If MetLife were close by, I'd drive there and finish up the paperwork and transfer myself. Okay, they have my paperwork for two weeks -- still, they haven't processed it. I'm asking for only $1,000 of my own money! How tough can that be? They have all my info -- address, phone, everything vital. What gives?
--- back to the more critical, though not being able to pay bills is critical,
My mother had a couple of really bad nights -- in so much pain, overdosing on other things ... terrible, unpretty -- I wish not to see it again, though got another shadow of it on Thursday.

What was to be a "30 minute" trip to hospital for pre-admission testing, was in fact, 3 some hours -- nearly 4. In the end, she should be ready to go, but now needs to exercise to gain muscle in arms, for that's what she'll use to lift herself.
I doubt that she will successfully complete the physical rehab and on top of that ... she is a bad surgery risk.

I'm not really sleeping well anymore ... Tyler Durden lurks with my face, selling soap, dreams, discontent, revolution to the masses. I like being alive, but this hell I've had is akin to death (for Hell is death+). I have heavy eyelids all the time, matched with dull wit and unsightly bursts of angry talk about topics for which I have some opinion, usually soundbite news (serial murderer cofession, inconsistent with facts) etc.

I'm writing little because I generally unmotivated. I now have a very wonderful schedule of reading job postings, responding to job postings, checking "potential spam" folder for possible responses finding few -- several times daily.

On the bright side, I never traded in my car for one with worse gas mileage and for a higher loan. Thanks God!

+ as defined by absence of life (love, existence, religious continuity; be it proximity to God, or restoration of self)

C3-PO has a better chance at a job than I do

Not only can't I program them, I can't even hope to be a binary load lifter.
Damn!

girl expresses demands

girl expresses demands
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

Little Red Riding Hood was walking through the forest when she was stopped by friend, Rabbit, who warned her to be careful of the wolf, for he would jump on her bones and play with her cleavage. She said, "thanks, I'll be okay."

A short while later, friend Owl reminded her of the dangers of the wolf and again, Red dismissed Owl with, "Thanks" showing a 9mm handgun for protection.

Minutes later, the wolf jumps right in front of her stating that he was going to jump on her bones and play with her cleavage.

"Oh no you're not", screamed Red. She brandished her pistol, leveling it on the wolf's head between his terrified eyes. "You're gonna eat me, just like it says here in the book!"

four buttons and "all" feature

categories: all (meaning canine anal sacks or duct glands could be followed by Kobiashi Maroe then shitaki mushrooms and "where's the beef?")
Get your friends / team to say the phrase, without divulging any words that you see, then get peeved and hurl it like a frisbee.
Catchphrase or Catch**it

job serach

"We have received your resume"

It's missing the phrase, "Thank you for playing." I don't see a door here. I also don't see a window.

Convenient timing

John Karr, substitute teacher (my prior job) may very well be the killer. He was regarded as a poor teacher, though. He taught in many different places and was a caregiver. According to some reports, he had a sexual assault charge, but in California during a fingerprint check -- nothing came up. I'll return to this fiend later.

I know that there are two schools of thought on male teachers -- perverts and queers. Little does anyone remember the powermad school masters who beat the snot out of kids who threw a fit or didn't "get with the program" in one room school houses. Later, the state was happy to pay women teachers less and require them to be unmarried. Later still, integration and the vast need for qualified teachers.

Men should be role models -- and many urbanites need good role models, men and women. Generally, it is accepted (through assumption and data) that urbanites tend not to have a stable father figure in their lives (via jail/prison, abandonment, death, etc.) I actually was a novelty, and I love teaching, but as life would have it, I failed to fullfill a requirement, relegating me out of teaching, which didn't pay me much anyway.

During my experience, there was always doubt, wonder, suspicion as to which one I was -- queer or pervert. As it happens, I'm neither, but that wouldn't sway most persons feeling I had to be one or the other or both. An EH (emotionally handicapped) child once called me a pedophile, actually perfunctory response in an attempt to defy me, get attention, and to seem superior. It was my only time that I met or saw the child, in that 5th grade class. A month later, she was removed from the school and into another program.

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I think that Ramsy's killer being a substitute teacher and caregiver spells a mess of problems for male teachers, regardless of the time they put in. It underscores fears, much like a Black male armed robber. It's common --statistically, almost predictable. It would be "newsworthy" if it was a Asian women in her 40s.

A woman teacher, "mom" as it were, is trusted categorically because she is a woman, who could be a mother. I have found, even in my small group of 90 would-be teachers, that some carried too much baggage for the trip. One woman would not teach in a mostly Black or high-percentage Black school. She didn't like Blacks. You don't get to always choose. She could not have been a fair teacher. A couple others, I had in the back of my mind -- certain worries about their intents -- control mainly, over others; nothing more.

I did encounter some creepy adults; somehow affiliated with students at a sschool, whether parents, uncles, cousins, etc. Some surely would have been jailed for mindcrimes. Even others were, well, demonstratively too close with some kids. That may or may not have led to anything, but the wrongness was there.

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Now, away from that, I find that it really would have killed me anyway. I'm still wanting to be a dad someday and having all those kids around me would either make me crazy to adopt or jump into a stupid relationship (to be a father), or get soured on kids totally and never want to deal with them really. It is a fine line.
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So far, no job, but the month of August might bring something.

Aren't you the stripper?

surprise meeting (Oh, Jeffrey)
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

Yes, yes, yes ... we all know what I did! Hey! I want to see what you do after drinking 1.25 gallons of beer. I know this because of the number 32oz cups I filled and drank of beer, before my memory became extinct like the dodo (or really lightning in a storm -- in flashes only). I kinda got the impression that I got the wrong impression about the party.

I also found out that even thirty pieces of gum, singularly or similtaneously didn't hide the smell of that much beer on your breath. I think the stumbling and nudity gave away my condition. In my head I was making words, but listening to me -- not so much.

originally from Coupling. surprise meeting (Oh, Jeffrey)

expounding upon MR's **ck Lebanon

Sadly, too many people see others as the problem and not their hate. Why think when acting and hating are faster ("more seductive"+)? "History shows that destroying has always been easier than creating."++

The US seems like an odd nation to be finger wagging and pointing, regarding its dismal history and track record (like genocide of native peoples, hundreds of years of slavery), condoning of underpayment of illegals (to some this is evil) -- I'd say, employment is illegal. They entered illegally, then have to be underpaid to exist -- tip from narrow-minded person, learn English and enter legally.

We do, however, allow freedoms -- sometimes too many to the wrong persons. I can go to a restaurant and order Korean food or an Indian restaurant and order food, sometimes not knowing what the items are. Better still, I can send it back. Most things are done by contract, not "I divorce you. I divorce you. I divorce you." sealing the end of the marriage. Similarly, I can get a job and then not randomly be fired.

I can drive through this small city and find Jehovah's Witness halls, Menenite Chapels, Synogogues, churches of all flavors (Catholic, Lutheran, Baptist, Methodist, Evengelical, Later Day, etc.). I do criticize others, belittle small bits of irony and inconsistencies in doctorine, but am happy there are choices. Really, the US is a consumer's market on many things including religion.

You believe that faith and faith only can cure your cancer, that is within your rights as an adult to let yourself go with that method. If you want to include poisonous snakes in your worship of God, that's okay too. If you want to accept no God (or god), that's cool. You may be ridiculed by others, not quite a Job character, but you aren't slain for it.

Killed for gayiety was a possibility, but now homosexuality is a fad. Aparently it's okay or cool, trendy to be seuxally wishy-washy. I think here, I'll be outdated and stick with hetrosexuality, but I'm fine with that. Simple principles, but very complex laws (too ubiquitous lawyers) make for a safer society with freedoms that other nations surrender or don't fight to have.

As for Syria, Lebanon, Jordan -- I think in the 70s you made it clear where you stood, and I'm sure that your mind is stuck, groovy with the 70s hate, retroactively cool, even in 2006.

+ Star Wars, New Hope
++ Star Trek II: Wrath of Khan

This is my dell

This is my Dell on fire! Any questions?

Since they are Sony batteries and Sony Vaio s haven't burnt, I'd say it wasn't necessarily exclusively a battery issue.

bathroom etiquette

Jeff looking
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

Here, we see Jeff looking at Patrick. He was requested by three seperate people to examine Patrick while in the bathroom. Jeff can't stop staring ... amazed that Patrick is a "tripod".

Neither of them are gay and it pans out that Jane was wrong that they didn't go for a little "cuddle" as is in her delusion. Jeff feels even more insecure after this. His homelife, later revealed in the series was scary.
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When you are in restroom (public) don't do this -- ever! Also, put space between you and another else, including friends or at completely different times. If you have to ask if it's wrong -- it is.

both ways?

ROADS SECRET 3
Originally uploaded by The Secret History.

original title was, "ROADS SECRET 3", but her positioning in the road led me to a number of different interpretations like, "goes both ways", "line in the middle" (especially rude), "wide open road" (equally rude), slow steady travel (note the speed limit), "ride her", "makes quick stops"

There is no real text in the picture, but clearly the photographer had to know this leaves open some impressions. In mine, expression of perverted, darkly sexual commentary. The reader can make guesses why (another road indeed).

"parallel", "don't tread on her", "waiting for ride"

unpretty (fugly) -- sorrow, remorse, negative response

yesterday ... little was right with it. My neice was here, one day before her school began and her dog visited too. A family member was ill, flopping around, suffering, but those around that person suffered more.

In this spit of life (yesterday) I thought to myself of a couple of things.

Suicide: easy for the person comitting it, terrible for those around the suicide (person). It is a selfish act; nothing more, nothing less. Thankfully there were no suicides yesterday.

I also pondered my existence and the relationship of what I'm now doing from what I want to do and what I have done. Is it coincidence, fate, planning, folly? I was in a place to help -- somewhat, and I did help, somewhat. Was I supposed to help? Was I supposed to be available? God knows, I don't.

Restless sleep -- mind focused on little ... I don't want another yesterday. If I had to relive things, I would have to sonsider that this day I might have to relive.

offer I refused

DESCRIPTION RCM is currently recruiting for a Field Technician/Dell Warranty Tech. This is an open-ended contract opportunity to work as an Independent Consultant to repair desktop, laptop, and printers.

The troubleshooting has already occurred through a phone support line. That support line has determined the problem is hardware related and ordered the components for replacement. Your job will be to pick up the hardware and take it to the client site (home, home-based business or small business) and swap the part out.

This position pays $28 per ticket within a 50 mile radius and $38 per ticket within a 51-75 mile radius. Anything over 75 miles pays $38 per ticket plus gas reimbursements at $.31 for every mile over 75 one way. You will be doing approximately 3-8 tickets per day. This position also requires you to work 40hrs/week with the posibility of weekends.

REQUIREMENTS Professional Experience with PC and Laptop at least 2/3 years with hands on experience or 1 yr in College Labs.

MUST have experience diagnosing/troubleshooting hardware issues on pc's, laptops, and printers.

Working on hardware repairs and/or upgraded on pc's, laptops and printers.

A+ certified is mandatory

Dell Certified is a plus

Must enjoy driving - will be driving from location to location (field technician).

Must have own tools for repairing computers that include anti-static protection and DC volt-meter

Ability to locate addresses in your immediate area.

This position is immediate and only requires a phone screen with the hiring manager

+ note typo of possiblity

Geese in flight

Geese in flight
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

Monday evening, I got peeved and went walking for 3 hours. I walked around ten miles, perhaps more and got some interesting shots. This is one. The geese did a test flight over me to see if I was a hunter, and since I wasn't, didn't mind flying near me again.

I saw a No Trespassers, but couldn't find the Trespassers William sign. So, no piglet. I found a few bits and pieces of things on the road, not much. I took only 3 shots of little pelts, cleaned of flesh and bone.

Also, not featured in my photo shoot from Monday were a couple of golden finches near a golf course. I got a limited shot of sandpipers on the course. I was too noisy going through a forest to capture wild things. The forest was thick enough, that to pass through I had to stomp down attacking follage.

signs of being old

signs
Originally uploaded by MDH, II.

I kept this one because ... Ferguson was Lisa's old name. Kinnerk was the road (unlike its present condition and shape) where I nearly killed myself and two friends stupidly driving too fast on a gravel road. Did I mention that I was dragging a Yosemite Sam on the back. The Yosemite Sam, we found on someone's curb to be hauled away by the trashman.
The car was stopped by a guide wire to a telephone pole. The car was never again the same, but I thought of this while I walked down the road again -- decades later.