Gradually degenerating into ignorance and complacency.

Sunday, September 28, 2008


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Not for lack of trying

Well, I am hoping that some of the readers from:

FW Politics
Mike Carboni
Mitch Harper

and of course

Beautiful City (Fort Wayne)

will read this story and wonder whom I should contact regarding the injustice. I contacted a local law firm suggesting two avenues to help this family with the disgraceful situation brought on by back luck and red tape. The following is from the email I received.

Cerpicio, if you would not like this included ... let me know.

Earlier this year my brother-in-law Matt had a lot of sewage back up into his basement. He called the city and it took three hours for a truck to show up. The city crew said they had the wrong truck and it took another two hours to get the right one. So for more than five hours sewage was pumping into their basement.

It is the city’s sewer system. Matt & Brandy didn’t do anything to cause the back-up and couldn’t have done anything to prevent it. They had to tear up the carpet and throw out a lot of things that were on the floor. They had to pay for someone to come in and sanitize the basement, too.

But the city isn't taking responsibility for it and Matt and Brandy are out a lot of money. Their insurance isn't covering it either. They've talked to people at city hall, and even had a news crew out to cover the story. During the story, a guy from the city said there is a known issue with the sewers in the neighborhood because all the restaurants in the area pour grease down the drain. The city comes out once a month with a camera to check for build up.

The city says it isn't their fault because they didn't know about it, but yet they have plans in place to monitor and fix the clogged sewers.

Here's a link to the news article (which also includes a link to the video):

Friday, September 26, 2008

assessing the situation


Choo choo

"Has something to do with where choo choo go."+

I didn't get an offer, so there!
"Don't anybody move or the [actor] gets it!"
"... and tell him I said, 'Ow!'"
Thank you for your interest in the Dispatcher position in [location]. We received a large number of applications for this position and following a competitive review of your background and qualifications, regrettably we are unable to offer you further consideration at this time.

Again, we appreciate your interest in employment opportunities at Norfolk Southern. Please feel free to check our Careers site at to see if there are future opportunities that may be of interest to you. We wish you the very best in your future career endeavors.

Human Resources
Norfolk Southern
+ Alex Karras as Mongo, Blazing Saddles. Interesting factoid -- he's from Gary, Indiana

Thursday, September 25, 2008

no phone calls

We only work with phones, but we don't want your calls. So there!

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

I recognize a church

My folks attend here and quite frankly, I think they do a great job! The people there have helped more than I can say.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

small victory

I understand that the resume I made for a person might have helped that person get another job. That person did get another job. It is unclear whether the resume I made was a contributing factor. Well, there are victories, however little, everywhere.

Iran blames the United States

for the collapse of world markets. Yep, very credible. Next we have Paris Hilton who has successfully developed cold fusion for the world's energy needs for all eternity. Following Hilton's experiment gone right, we will be enthralled with Jintao's Global Bill of Rights.

Then back in reality, when Ahmadinejad talks we should all tell him to just shut up.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Standing Still on Boot Hill

"Normally I'd be dead now, but my new [heart] worked great!"+

I should be dead afraid of how much of a financial mess I have. I should be sweating bullets and thinking of eat a few high-velocity ones, but instead I am standing still. I can see the grim carnage of what I did to bring this on myself. I also have lived to see another day and likely more after that.

I'm not a new man, not really any different save one small detail...
I have hope.

While I won't soap box God, as I have been typically-human wishy-washy, I thank God for a will to live (better). God also sent me someone to help. She is my closest friend and knows what and who I am. We have kept each other in the shadows for a long time. We are soon on our way to more perfectly blend our families and friends together. She and her daughter got to meet some of my family. [photo]. I hope slowly we can integrate our lives into one.

No, there aren't marriage plans now and there aren't "little ones" on the way. She has braved much to get to where she is and I still have more broken glass to get to the end. I don't have a problem using the "love" word. Here she is with her daughter who agreed to meet me.

+ John Candy as Den, Heavy Metal

Tuesday, September 16, 2008


Well, I have chances but none of them pay enough for the change in venue. Either I would spend my money on housing or in gas. The most recent -- rate would not likely change for a year and it doesn't start high either.

I was gonna pay my bills but then they got high.

I have felt like Job from the bible, tempted to curse God almighty for my afflictions. Job loved God, never wavered. I can't claim such. I need money care of a job. I don't want a nothingness at-home job. I want to work. I want to go to work, earn money, pay bills. That really shouldn't be that much to ask.

As I have been unlucky in cards (jobs), I have been very lucky in LOVE. I don't mean to imply that I am playing a game or that I am a player, but rather, God has blessed me in many other ways.

Life is like Tetris I suppose. You get all the right pieces, not always timely or in the right order and sometimes you have to turn them, but with planning and patience they fit together and form solid foundations.

I claim to like challenge, but in this money issue, I cannot falter. I despise not having money to pay bills. I want to be responsible and pay what is due -- but with what?

Love -- I have never felt so loved. There was a time when I was impoverished, destroyed, and I was brought back from that void. Now, I am broken but I have a heartbeat. I have a love. I am not so down as I have a love who calls me by name. I love her!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Expanding a prayer list

Well, I had found that I have lost my faith in God then found it. These weeks with job hunting has made me loathe my not-so-biblical Job existence. I am not Job. Job was a good, God-loving, faithful man who did not lose faith. I am weaker, meaner, generally faithless. Still, God kept reminding me that God existed. Here, there, everywhere. I got the message. I must have included the, "show me statement". I still need cash now.

I think I might have an understanding as to why I must wait, but I don't like it. In fact, I passionately hate it!

In the prayers for Carrie and her job search, Dave and his job search, I request anyone who does pray ...

my friend is going through a tough time and needs strength to make it through ... support from people all around. Her name is Tawnya and the next month will be wicked and tiring.

A previous manager is leaving soon for Iran. Pray that he gets there and back safely, unsullied by the politics of the many faiths and faithless.

Thanks God! That's again I know you saved me. Heaven will hold a mighty bill. Perhaps my job will be to go back and help others "keep the faith, kid."


Anderson job has potential for greater growth, expansion.

Still don't know what to do.

All consuming

I have spent the last many days dedicated to reading hundreds of job positions, applying to many places, setting up accounts to apply and have had a few interviews.

I got good and bad news.

I was offered an online tutoring job, but it doesn't start for a couple of weeks -- ergo, still no money.
I had a great interview today in Anderson (90 minutes away): it has a several week, lower-paying training all the while how to find a way to drive from an Indy location (family) there or commute from FW or find a super-cheap hotel there. The good news, "We think that you are over-qualified, but believe that you will pursue a management position after training." The training is afternoon ending at midnight. Long night drive.

The good news, I have only to submit my paperwork for another FW tutoring job (requires travel), but is local. Sad news, not sure how frequent the work will be.

So, do I take the sure thing, lower-paying for now Anderson job, while waiting for the FW tutoring to start? The cheapest hotel I found doesn't have internet at all. The cheapest internet hotel is about the same distance (4 miles) from work, but is quite a bit more expensive. I mention this for I could still do the FW tutoring online with my Anderson job.

When training is done, my schedule is 4 days weekly.

Bills are overdue and I am out of cash, money.

Another bit of good news, a great friend is turning around my great friend's life. My great friend has new found strength with friends and loved ones and boldly moved on to another stage in my great friend's journey of life. It is a tough journey for my great friend, but my great friend will make it!

In spare moments when not reading pages upon pages of posts, I took a few pictures. Sometime when I am unwound I will post them, remarking what they are.

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

anything to get resumes

First I'll label it "education / training", then I'll label it "management". Next, I'll label it "sales", and later "skilled trades". I will get your resume, and your little dog too.

Selling isn't education, nope.

3 locations, but you'll be working only at one

Let's play "Where's Waldo" with this job, shall we?