stupid entry

Wild Gun Man
highest level... 64
In the arcade I would have never made it so far and would have never seen that the score rolls over like an odometer. Okay ... why the zeros? In the game many of the pointer are based on dollars for reward for criminals who may or may not draw on you.
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criping ... games not requiring accuracy, unlike Wild Gun Man that counts a loss if you shoot before they draw, why have a fire button if there is never an advantage to not firing? If there is no accuracy % and that if you aren't firing, you are risking your "life" ... why stop firing? Why even make a fire button?

2. If are are entering into a game, why is your character invariably ill-equipped, such as a knife to a machine gun battle. There is tough and there is suicidal. Unarmed, I shall take on these 40 some people. I see their guns, but will prefer a club.

Hmmm Matrix got those ideas from somewhere --- moreover .... no.... I won't start tearing that movie apart --- too many comments will arise.
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back to classic games: Bomberman ... I never played until this game system. What a wacky game!
Olympics ... ah, yes. I remember full well the Atari single joy with top left button. In the running games you had to jiggle the joy back and forth, usually holding the thing near your stomach. It was not a thing to see. Did the creators see what the results were? From the back you see only shoulder and arm movement in a predictable pattern. Worse was commentary ... "Come on! Get going! Almost there!"

Secrets

a human concept

Either you keep them or you don't. I have so many, then I think about them it hurts. Perhaps, one day, before I die ... I can't forget them all. They are not military secrets. They aren't slander about any other person. Things spoken ... knowing that the listener listened and won't then speak. For when I listened ... I learned. I felt no different, really, about any person who spoke to me, but it did make me think and was emotive.

In retrospect ... even my own, have helped me be what and who I am. It helps that I don't hate myself.

My secrets about me ... I don't like typing and I don't like talking about me.

pure conjecture

I believe that more and more "popular" music focusses on the objectivity of women -- mainly as sex object and in some cases toys -- merely living, but inanimate objects. My hypothosis is: (assuming that the lyrics are reasonable foundation for the author's general belief system regarding sex and gender roles)
Is the intent of the discourse to fit in to the growing trend toward sexual prowess over others, sexual pomp and circumstance or (here is the dangerous statement); the attempt to subordinate a woman-figure, since, for so-long being controlled in a single-mother household?

In other words, finally free of being "dominated" by the only parent figure -- mother, a man acts out in opposition to authority, in a way he could never do with his only authority figure. The woman -- being more than a placebo for the mother, is a model of the authority, with specific differences in that a different relationship is formed with another woman, sexual in nature.
Being controlled is a terrible stigma in many groups -- more so in urban areas where you can gain status through subjegating others. This comes into play greater in institutions -- schools, detention centers, jails, prisons. A continuing and escalating cycle of control and violence to maintain that control manifests itself in quasi-obsession. OIn that failure to fully dominate this other, relegates the man back to the boy -- psyche in anguish.
Combine this with drug and stimulant use -- stimulants may include social seclusion through many avenues including single-player video games for many hours both buidling asocial tendencies and diminished discernment of non-comparable simuli.
Moreover, aggressive games (and violent games also) tend to favor the schema of subjegating others to your will. Many games offer reinforcement in that the greater the violence and aggression, the greater the outcome -- success and or short-goals (points). Media exaggerbates this with reverence for violent celebrities who include sports figures.

Aside: Bobby Knight -- a chronological adult, foul-mouthed, violent, even choking students and adults, was allowed to stay at IU Bloomington for many years despite his criminal behavior and was adored for it. I personally wished he had been in jail and would still be there.

Although it's nice to say, "there it is ... that's the problem right there!", but it isn't that simple. Even clearer is that, if the causation were just that -- and nothing else, how would you improve it and change it? Would you conjure reasonable, rational fathers out of the air?

An urban single mother, having little money for herself, now has at least one child. This strain worsens as the child and the mother grow older. Let us examine three overly-simplistic, plausable but unrealstic examples:

Mother A: little education, which leads to low-paying jobs. Assuming that she is paid at least minimum wage and has one child, she must know how to get help. Many do not. Assuming that she doesn't get help, either throuugh apathy, ignorance or denial; stress sets in -- tension in family unit. Money then is more important than safety. She might conclude that taking risks is better than not taking risks. Taking risks might include: endangering herself through vocation (illegal activities or activities that surrounded by illegal acts [huh? oh, drugs, theft, prostituion -- payment for sex even if it isn't money), co-habitator choice (man who is engaged in illegal activities or whose presence worsens the family unit -- not being in funds or overspending) or endagering her child through the above scenarios or through abandonment intentionally, disparingly (due to over working), ignorance of importancce.
People tend to learn through environment. What a person imitates is completely dependant on the person. If there is no positive consistent male role model, the child must seek out role models. In the above case, there is neglect -- leaving the child to wonder why. If there are other significant others in the area -- it is likely that the child will seek out those persons -- whether they are good or bad influences. She reacts harshly at seemingly random times and doesn't understand the illogic of children. She is in control sometimes -- harsh when she is. Here, women may be seen as violent, controlling and spiteful. To vanquish this beast, a man must take great conrol, at almost any means -- to defend himself.
add here the concept of large metro areas with gang activity where most children feel compelled to join a gang, leading to criminal activity and encouraging violence.

Mother B: she is better educated, with a more stable income and possibly better resources overall including car, house, furtnishings, food, freinds. While she is raising her son, she -- not a boy, is still ignorant of what boys are, how they change, what they do. Not wanting the son to feel unloved, the mother may overcompensate by either having a series of not-so good role models around or tragically either no role models (wishing to do it all herself) or only family members who are helpful, but aren't a good mix of some differing perspectives. Also, there may be difficulty finding a family member wishing to be father or uncle figure. Perhaps they are too busy or unwilling. The child, bored, seeks out others. Perhaps he finds positive role models, but perhaps not. Again ... a static evironment, leads to boredom. Through growing periods, boys will have testtosterone surges that will make them react like a woman during her menstration cylce ... happy, moody, wild, aggressive ... aloof. During the teen years, this doesn't quiet down or have months off. He never knows what he is. She's in control, but perhaps too much. Perhaps women, for this boy are unimportant or over dominant.

Mother C: a better situation for many. She is capable of caring for herself and at least one other. She is raising her child. She's doing very well and makes opportnities for her son that others could not. To overcompensate for the lack of father, she is all things ... and will not allow others to destroy what she has created. This will-be man is constantly shielded and protected from all things, including his own wrong-doings. While this doesn't, perhaps encourage violence toward women, but it may develop into a poor perspective, in that women are his servents or they are general pawns ... and that men are greater -- especially him.

Anyway ... the hypothosis --- examples, nothwithstanding is: a growing populaiton of women-controlled (single motherhood) of so many single or groups of boys, contributes to the perspective of the need to dominate women -- if through no other means ... sex or through violence.

In the develeopment of sex, it is a hormonal stimulating act, which requires stimulation of testtosterone and adrenaline. Through years of disturbance, and fear, sex becomes and stimulating act of control and dominance. Escalating this to sadism and sexual sadism (including rape) would then not be unpredictable. Preferences for ages may be an overextention of inferiority, fear, and anger. An easier target is one who is more easily dominated -- physically. Thereofore, younger targets are prefered, at least at first.

Cunning can be a powerful addition, in that deception is a greater part of seducing and illiciting a desired response.

NOTE: urban is exactly that... urban. I mean that an urbanite can be of any color, creed, etc.

So very rude

patting your lover's bottom ... "Is this seat taken?"

Hey! That guy didn't get the baseball anywhere!
He's got four balls.
Walk with pride me lad.

Fixing a ladder

An old ladder in the garage to the attic space ... broke, snapped in half, ergo ... kaput.
Now. How do you fix the ladder?
Cut off broken ends; buy new bolts; attach pipe tape (metal hole-punched bands); drill holes; test out fixed ladder.
If ladder breaks; redo
If holes are too close; redo

If you are not interested in project; too bad

The ladder is fixed on the only warm day for January

Car is getting flunky ...
How to fix that car ...
plant C-4; move car to remote location nowhere near any other building or living thing; detonate; be sure to video the explosion and the process

Grin with great pride