stressful days

I was at my wits end ... couldn't vent, turned it inward and grew despondent. Now, I just want to vent ... so, I'm going to find a violent online game and play it for venting.

Mum's in hospital, moved to another room, won't leave for another day or two. No visit she has made has ever been short. She's in no danger, thankfully, but there is a chance of heavy bleeding from an outpatient surgery. There are other stressors, but work doesn't alleviate the stress.

give me something to break
or
just shoot me

please